SO NOT ME 👀 #ipromgaladinner (at Duchess Place Kuala Lumpur)
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“ To err is human, to purr is feline ”
I know I’m worth more; I need someone to kiss me like I’m about to go to war, because I fight battles every fucking day and I need someone that can see it without me having to say a thing. Someone who just intrinsically knows the way that my overthinking can ruin almost everything - I need someone that knows how to reassure me without me feeling like I’m a drain on her time and energy. I need someone who’s not afraid to show me how she’s feeling, someone who is brave enough to let the walls down - I need to know exactly where I stand so I don’t keep falling into the black holes within my mind. Most of all I need someone who can see that there is a bright light inside me, and actually wants to reach out and touch it - someone who makes damn sure I know how much she wants to by the way she holds my hand - squeezing it, unyielding but so tender. Someone who wants to embrace me, instead of me always being the one to embrace. I have this soft side that I normally hide but it’s dying to come out, it’s been dormant for so long. I had someone’s name lightly written in pencil - it was tentatively awaiting a confirmation of reservation in a space I save for special people, but she never called to say she’d be there; so it’s still waiting for someone that’s going to want to kiss me every day like I’m going to war. She’ll know exactly how much it means to me to have her by my side - and when I find the one who kisses me like that, you better fucking believe I’ll give her every god damn part of me; every shred of loyalty and love that this body carries - I’ll give her all of it, and then some more. When she has a bad day I’ll go out and pick all of the roses with nothing but my bare hands, never minding about the thorns - just so I can see a flash of happy dart across her tear streaked face. I’ll walk barefoot across molten lava just to go get her that kind of ice cream that she likes when the world is dropping bombs. I’ll hold her against me when it’s too loud and the windows of her mind are rattling and she’s scared that she’s falling apart - I’ll hold her against me and she’ll feel the beat of my heart trying to jump out of my chest as it’s trying to keep her together. On rainy days when it’s ceasefire and we’ve got nothing better to do, my eyes will drink her in like she’s my favourite piece of art and I will tell her she belongs in a museum because she’s that god damn exquisite to me. When we make love I’ll make it feel like every time is the last time and like the world is about to end. Apocalyptic raptures - bare naked ascensions, I’ll take her to different dimensions - I’ll make her see all of the fucking stars and when she’s done I’ll wait a moment for her to catch her breath and then I’ll do it all over again - I’ll bring her to a different kind of heaven and it will begin and end right between her thighs. I’ll compromise and I’ll sacrifice and I’ll be there for her, no matter the price because I have so much of myself to give, and I promise I’ll give it all - but I’m getting tired of searching for her; playing games isn’t fun anymore, when life is a fucking war.
- War/games // ©@rarasworldbro
I cry a lot these days
It is frustrating when you just replied like you dont even want me in your life.
